Captain’s Log, 4.5.17

It’s really funny the reactions I get when I tell people that I’m working on releasing a core narrative of unworthiness. They’re shocked. “You, Arden, of all people?” And often their immediate reaction is to try to convince me of how...

Captain’s Log, 4.4.17

I’m retraining myself to be soft in all the ways I wasn’t allowed to be. I’m trying to remember all the things I wanted before I was shamed out of wanting them. It’s really destructive the wishes we kill in people just because we’re too...

Captain’s Log, 4.2.17

In the end I’m just praying that the purity and sincerity of my love saves me even amidst the mistakes I may make. I’m trying to assimilate the belief that my value comes from who I am, not the sum of what I do. It’s difficult if not impossible to...

Captain’s Log, 4.1.17

Do you ever get to a point in your personal growth where you’re like, “This is ridiculous. Plenty of people lead seemingly decent lives with way less awakening. I could have easily found a suitable life if I’d stopped long ago. Look at [person], who...

Captain’s Log, 3.30.17

There have been a few select people who have reached out to me gracefully and offered their work to me with kindness and generosity when they glean from my posts that it might be useful to me. I am deeply grateful to these people for their ability to step unbidden...

Captain’s Log, 3.26.17

CW: assault, trauma, victim-blaming. I’ll just say this up front: this might not be a terribly popular opinion, but it’s something I feel called to share regarding my own process. I’m speaking only for myself, and if this information isn’t for...